Looooonngggg Day

Last night I stayed up too late looking at pictures of animals. Ugggg not worth it, even if snow leopards are adorable and Spanish mustangs are really cool looking.

Today I actually payed moderate attention in my 9:00 class. I have a pile of labs building up that I should get going on soon. At 11:45 I had a meeting with the night class teacher to get advice about my project and how to make it satisfactory. I was really really nervous since he’s an asshole but it wasn’t horrible. It basically went like, read over my old project proposal and tell me that it is too simple for a 400 level class (it wasn’t that simple in my opinion but whatever) and I had a new idea that I came up with last night and I told him it and that was more satisfactory so I’m going to run with that and hopefully the project will turn out ok and I will pass the class and graduate and live happily ever after.

I still have my 2:00 class to tackle, we have a quiz. I haven’t studied because I haven’t had time and I don’t care. I’m sooooo hungry too because I was too nervous about the meeting to eat lunch and so after I get out of 2:00 class I’m going to get me some snacks.

Tomorrow the equestrian team is getting audited, which is sort of a pain but not awful because we don’t do much with our money. It should be quick. That reminds me I need to turn in a reimbursement form right now huzzah!

Project

Last night night class teacher went around the class and drilled us on our project ideas. Not in a nice way since this guy is a giant huge asshole. Also we submitted our proposals last week but had no feedback. Anyway, I guess he is looking for big projects with something automated in a script file, because he definitely bitched at people who weren’t looking to do script files (like me). We didn’t really know this, the assignment sheet wasn’t that explicit in saying what the project should be.

Ok, so I really don’t like being put on the spot and combined with the assholeness and I wasn’t have a great day. After he moved on to the next victim, I will admit I was really upset and got a little weepy in class. Like really quietly. My hair was hanging all over my face and stuff and I hope it kind of hid the drama. I was just really frustrated and confused about what he wants and what to do.

Now everyone that had projects that weren’t satisfactory have to go to his office for 15 minutes. I am going on Monday and I’m dreading it so much!! I’m afraid he will be mean and I’ll cry again and look like a baby or overly emotional, because when I’m really stressed that’s just what I do I can’t help it. I don’t know why we are going to the office, he isn’t interested in actually helping students and I don’t expect to get better project ideas. Or it will probably be something I don’t know how to do on my own.

I don’t want to script because I don’t know that much scripting and especially Linux scripting. We did 1 scripting homework which was making a menu which is really easy. I don’t know really how to script for much else and this is supposed to be a big security project. Also I think that this project, for what he wants, is too big for one person to do in a few weeks. Last semester I did a big security project but that was with 5-6 other people in a group. Oh and that spanned the whole fucking semester. He keeps insisting that it should be big and blahblah to show to jobs but when I go in for jobs I am going to talk about my internship, not some lame ass project I did. I feel this degree is only good for knowing the very basics and everything else will be learned on the job.

yeah…

Instead of studying for that night class quiz like I said I have totally been looking at Fark. I really need study!!! Its on 2 chapters!

1 more month

I was nomming my dinner and thinking about a quiz I have tomorrow and also about a project I have yet to start beyond making a proposal and the fact that I have not done much in the way of job searching and I got really stressed out. Still am. I am going to study for the quiz tonight and the jobs have been on the backburner because I don’t want to apply and then have them want me to come interview when I am still up here and I don’t have a way really to go down to the cities for interviews. I still get stressed out about it though because before I realized that about the interviews I was going to start applying like right now and I wanted to get a head start on the job search. Not happening now but the guilt is there.

I am also afraid that I will fail my night class, I have no idea what my grade is right now but I take solace in the fact that the whole class is doing badly. I don’t care what grade I get as long as its passing.

Caturday

This is the old lady’s first caturday and she thinks that you should get off her lawn. There was no Caturday in her day and young kittens had to hike 2 miles both uphill to get any treats.

unbelievable

Hey I’m not drunk anymore.

I saw this entry on Pharyngula, even though it is answers in genesis which is a super super fundy crazy organization that runs that creation museum out in Kentucky or whereever, this is despicable. It is about how lying isn’t always amoral for example if you know where some Jews are hiding and a Nazi asks if you know where some Jews are, do you lie or tell the truth. Obviously a normal person would lie their pants off, however answers in genesis says that lying is always always bad, I read some of the actual article but it made me want to vomit so I couldn’t finish it.

The evils of taking the bible entirely literally have no bounds.

eyhusrt thirsty thusday

Hi its 2AM ooo i hit the capt lisolock by mistake

So ai wrote a paper earlier for that class and i wrot eit  in like 2 minuetes, or amybea nnan hour. more like an hour

thaen i went out with the horse team. we went toa bar named rumrunners and we brought our mn underage peoplej. but in rumrunners they make the peo[le drinking stay in a spereate arpea. that was kind of sucky, so we wnt to michelle’s aprtment and chan ged dhshirtsi wore her shirt

and we drank some of her booze i thin it was called southern omcfort

and then twe watn back to rumrumemrs with your new shirts

some blck guy asked me if  like black guys but i didn/t realize at first because it was real hloudiint here. but befgoe i cou,ls answer my fein ds drageed me away tgo eget another drkns

adn lots od ancing. bad dan cing.

Ring Pic

THIS IS WHAT MY ENGAGEMENT RING MAY LOOK LIKE

lotr pinball

A Lord of the Rings pinball machine appeared in the middle of Atwood… which is our equivalent to Truman’s SUB for those who don’t know.

This. Is. Awesome.

my computer is back up

I didn’t blog much last week because my computer was being a piece of shit. I have a new graphics card now, it isn’t quite as good as my old one but it will do just fine. Today I finally got some time in on Mirkwood, that was fun. I can’t talk about it though, NDA.

THIS WEEK:

I have to write 3 papers, each about a published research paper, each 5 pages each, due Friday. The papers are god awful boring and they are for the most part about 10-15 years out of date. They are about the internet. Papers 10-15 years old about the internet are pretty much worthy of being kindling or makeshift toilet paper (hey we’re camping with research papers). There is one semi-interesting one about how to discriminate peer-to-peer traffic from normal traffic that isn’t horribly old. I felt kind of traitorous writing about this though because I still torrent things once in a while and that is of course… a peer-to-peer application. whatever. I have about 1.25 pages on the first one, 2.5 pages on the peer-to-peer one, and i haven’t started #3 yet.

Veteran’s Day (wed) we have no class!

That’s it really. I hate my life, I have been depressed/unmotivated/worn down and burnt out for weeks. Only the thought of getting out of here and moving back to the cities and getting an apartment with Tom and seeing him ALL THE TIME instead of this long-distance crap keeps me going.