lunch with a church lady

9 02 2010

On Sunday at church an old lady who I have known for a long time and came to my graduation party but I’m not like friends with or anything asked me to lunch today. Yeah sure free meal why not. We went at 11:30 today, it was ok, went to Olive Garden, kinda boring whatever. There was just an awkward moment that has been grating on my nerves when she asked if Tom goes to church or something and I said no. Because then there was the whole “Oh, does that bother you? You know, a marriage needs to be based on God. A marriage needs a common foundation etc etc. Have you talked with him about it?” At that point I just didn’t know what to say so I shut up until she switched topics.

I really don’t consider that her business and I don’t feel comfortable telling about how I am only a church-goer by force right now and that I haven’t believed in anything for a few years. I’ve been living a double life at home where I had discussions/arguments about religion with the folks in the past but they still drag me to church and I don’t complain because I really really hate arguing this with them since they don’t want to accept it or consider it and nobody can win. So I think they may be thinking I changed my mind and came back or something. Which is far from the case.

My point is that Tom and I do have a foundation of godlessness and mutual values and being the perfect people for each other and we are going to get by just fine without having to include any God in the middle. It seems kind of pathetic to me if you can’t make your marriage work without having to get supernatural help. We are planning a nice secular outside wedding in a park or garden and the ceremony will include no such mention of God and the person doing it will probably be like a judge or something.

Ok the other thing grating on me is that this double life is driving me nuts and the job search is going so slowly. I have contacts sending my resume out, I have signed up at a contract agency, I look at posting almost every weekday. Still nothing. Now my parents are going to start going to another church and my choices are supposed to be to go with which is out of the question since it’s farther away and starts early or go to a church by myself. I’m going to bring up that I would rather not go at all but if they seem like they would kick me out on the street then I will “go” by leaving the house and going to a coffee shop for a while and then come back. So needlessly complicated. Tom says that if I do get kicked out I can live with his family but I wouldn’t want to intrude like that especially when I still don’t have a job.

Maybe I can avoid the fight by spinning it as I don’t want to go to a church by myself because I’m too shy, which is entirely true. Even staying at the old one and going alone would be awkward. Going to a new one I’d never assimilate and it would suck. When I get a job the clouds will break and a sunbeam of hope will shine down because I can move out and never have to think about this again!





Proposal Video

27 01 2010





He put a ring on it

25 01 2010

I’m pretty sure that anyone that reads this is on facebook and knows that I am engaged… but hey! I got engaged on Saturday!

Here’s the story

First off, it wasn’t a complete surprise to me although Tom did an admirable job in hiding his activities. He told me that the ring has been in the works for 2 months, its custom made! So he had to show them the design he wanted and choose the main gem (Tsavorite which is green garnet, more rare than emerald and better in many ways; great deep color (at least mine is), less defects that could make it break, less defects also means prettier and garnets have an intrinsic super shiny quality) and there are 10 small diamonds flanking it. There was a whole process of modeling it and revisions and getting it approved before they cast it. I was unaware that this was happening since November, really I had no idea.

We had this date planned for Saturday of going to the St. Paul winter carnival. We went last year and it was super super cold but it was a lot warmer this year. I hear it got to 36 F and it was rainy all day – that sucked. Tom had been acting absurdly excited about this carnival date during the week and it started to be suspicious to me. He was also trying really hard to get me to dress up and I didn’t know why at first and then he said it was to celebrate passing his PhD Quals which he found out about a few days ago. We had already celebrated those after he took them so that was kind of suspect. On Friday I realized that he could be planning to propose. Eeeeee!!

On Saturday we started out by eating chocolate muffins, then headed to the fair grounds to look at snow sculptures. They were kind of sad since it was raining, some of them were under tarp tents. Tom had borrowed his brother’s camera and the battery died while taking pictures of snow sculptures. That was sad and Tom got all distressed and we drove off to find a new battery to buy or a charger or something. We ended up buying a charger at Best Buy, which I hope his brother reimburses him for, and went to Borders to charge it up. While waiting for it to charge, we looked at Caturday pictures on my iPod with Borders wifi, it was fun. Once the thing was charged we had lunch at Potbelly’s and went back to see the rest of the snow sculptures. I stepped in a huge puddle wearing suede boots, that was great. It’s ok though because they are old and already looked grungy. We went through the snow maze and then headed off to downtown St. Paul to watch the parade.

We like to watch the parade in a skyway because it’s warm there, and in the case of this year, dry. The parade was kind of meh but they have fun cars carrying hot air balloon baskets and the the hot air balloon flamethrowers that they shoot off into the air as they go. That is what we come to see! In the skyway I took at peek at Tom’s pockets and saw a squarish bulge in a coat pocket. Oh yes that had to be a ring.

Parade done we go to the ice sculptures. They were kind of meh too, there was a dragon thing and a mountain lion and bighorn sheep scene but nothing really that great that I remember. There is a stage thing made of ice and Tom made me go stand on it and he put the camera on a tripod and set it up to take a picture on timer. He comes running over and we pose for the picture and he asked me if I had fun today. I said yes and he said, forgive me if my memory isn’t perfect, it was like “I want to have fun with you for the rest of our lives with you as my fiancee” and then pulled out this huge wooden box, very solid looking and got down on the one knee and said will you marry me. I wanted to say yes I really did but I couldn’t talk, struck speechless so I just had to nod very excitedly and pull off my glove to put my hand out. There were some onlookers that were cheering quite loudly. Then he tells me that the camera was taking video and that we have a reservation at 5 for dinner. He has custody of the video right now and isn’t sure what he’s going to do with it but if it gets put online I’ll be sure that I’ll post it here and on facebook.

Getting off the stage those onlookers shook our hands and wished us luck in life. We walked around in a daze for a while, at least I was. But it was rainy and yucky so we ended up sitting around in the lobby of the science museum waiting for dinnertime. Hooray for science museum wifi! I IMed Amber a bit while we waited. We were parked in the science museum lot so we actually had separate outfits to change into for dinner that we went to get and change in the bathroom. It was nice to change into dry clothes I must admit.

DINNER WAS AMAZING!! I have never been to such a nice restaurant! It was in this great old building quite near the St. Paul downtown and it had all these fancy rooms and bottles of wine and champagne everywhere. There was also a big puddle going in and I was wearing expensive shoes so Tom lifted me up and carried me over the puddle!! After we were first seated, I was looking around and then everything finally hit me and sunk in and I cried a little bit, from happiness of course.

Our waitress was super excited to hear about the engagement and closed the doors to the room for a bit to look at the ring. She said that it’s a very European style, that they do a lot of rings with colored gems and diamond on the side and in gold. I didn’t know that, I have just always wanted a green stone ring since it’s more special to me than diamond and unique. The food was really really good, I got a salad and a chicken entree and Tom got steak. We also got glasses of wine with the waitress helping to decide which wines, they were white wines and mine was really good. Sweet and fruity. The chicken was the best chicken ever! It was all gourmet with “plating” like the sauces drizzled around the plate. It was like a breast and a leg and I usually don’t like picking chicken off of bones and it had skin which I also usually don’t like but with this the skin was good and crispy and the bones were a little cumbersome but it was good enough to not really care. It also had collard greens as a side which I’ve never had before but they were fine. I tasted a bit of Tom’s steak and it was good but I liked my chicken better. The staff was really great and they were always coming around to refill water and take away dirty dishes. We had a chocolate cake for dessert, it was still warm from the oven. Sooooo gooood. Coconut ice cream with actual coconut shavings in it, different kinds of chocolate drizzles.

I feel like I need to wrap this up. We’re so sosososososo happyyy! Even my parents were cool with it, I was really afraid that it would get ugly when I told them today but it was actually fine. I made my mom go speechless though haha. We are going to get married in a park/garden for sure, in the early summer. 2011 at the earliest, it depends on when I get a job and finances really. I have put on the picture of the ring I’m using right now until I have one of me wearing it and the snowmaze because it’s cool. THE END





Miss Star Trek Sweater

18 01 2010

Ok guys… It’s been a while. Its also kind of late so I won’t be saying much right now, maybe more later.

Last night, Tom and the other grad students and I went out to celebrate them taking the PhD Qualifying Exam. We went to a southwestern themed bar/restaurant. I have no idea what the name was except that it started with an A. When we got there they were still in restaurant mode but we stayed for hours and hours and it eventually turned into bar mode. I was wearing killer boots that Tom gave me for Christmas and all the sitting was annoying to me since the boots stayed hidden under the table mostly. Ah well.

Tom and I were watching the dance floor a lot, although he wouldn’t dance! There were more than a few characters but star trek sweater stands out along with the dirty old man who danced with lots of women and girl who used her scarf as a dancing accessory. The sweater seriously looked like a star trek uniform… it was fascinating in the awfulness. Why oh why would you wear that out? Or buy it? Or why would someone design and create that? Boggles the mind





Ipod Touch

27 12 2009

I am ordering my ipod touch today since the stores have it too expensive and it is cheaper on Amazon and can get free shipping!!

I have been collecting free apps the past few days.
I may feel like I’m sucking steve job’s cock… but it is the best mp3 player out there no contest.





Happy Birthday To Me

14 12 2009

So today is my birthday… 23 years old now.

Yesterday Tom came up in the afternoon, I had suspicions he would. He brought me Dove candy and a card! We went to the mall and did the usual walk around, look in the pet store to see the kittens and bunnies, go to Target. I had to buy contacts lens fluid which I needed really bad and I got a purple skirt for $5. Went back home, changed clothes and went to dinner at Ciatti’s which is a nice Italian restaurant. MMmm yummy and we got a super super rich piece of cake for dessert. After he left at like 10:30 I stayed up wayy too late doing nothing important. I wish I hadn’t because I’m so tired today.

I had my first final today, having not studied AT ALL I tried to study this morning up to 1 pm when the final was but it was hard since I’m tired. The final was sooooo long and I had to make up so many answers it was terrible. I’ll still do fine in the class though. After the final I got some cheesy sticks from Pizza Hut and went home to open my birthday cards! Yay. Now I am just hanging out… maybe take a goddamn nap. I also am watching my happy birthday wall posts pile up :D . Later I’m going to have to do more work on my project report/presentation. Oh so awful. I wish I could just do fun things on my birthday.

I have another final tomorrow at 1 pm again and then on Wed I have my last final in the AM and my presentation in the evening. I am scared shitless about this presentation… because the teacher is a dick and this is our term project AND our final!! Luckily the paper is a lot more points than the presentation and I think the paper is decent. Just need to get thru it.





Sims 3 video

11 12 2009

The Sims 3 people aren’t afraid to be raunchy to sell their product.

My mom gave me some monies, my first instinct was buyMirkwoodbuyMirkwood but no… I am holding off until after finals because I am already wasting my time excessively as it is. I will use it to buy Tom’s Christmas present.





I might be alone my birthday weekend

9 12 2009

so depressing. fuckyouschool





HAHA

8 12 2009




Astronomy Final Exam

8 12 2009

So I signed up to take my final for my online class today, show up at the center for continuing studies. They tell me they moved computer exams into Education Building 124B. Ok, I head to the education building, never been in here before. I assume there would be a sign or something since the center for continuing studies itself is plastered with signs showing where it is. No sign, I go into the building and start wandering around. I wander all around the first floor and the room 124 I found was some teacher’s office… There is no “124B”. I maybe should have checked the upper floor but I instead just left.

Its ok though because on our syllabus it says our grade is calculated on the best 2 out of 3 exams. Since I took exam 1 and 2 I don’t think I necessarily have to take the final. I emailed the teacher to make suresies.

After I left the building I walked though the brutal cold and wind to the student union where I got a H1N1 shot per my mother’s request and then I ate a nice relaxed breakfast and read a paper. I was going to head back out later to turn in a reimbursement form for the equestrian team but the weather is really a turnoff to walking outside. I will do it tomorrow when I am in the area for a class… Or maybe procrastinate on it long enough that the new treasurer that will take over my job when I’m done has to do it, hehehe *cackle*.